Yes! That’s right! I weigh a whooping 320 lbs and it doesn’t seem to be going anywhere. I’ve spent months weighing this amount. I just can’t seem to shed the weight. I’ve been doing cardio and weightlifting but still I maintain this weight. I am dealing with all sorts of pains that I never had as an adolescent and it’s seriously a bummer.

I have back, knee, ankle, and foot pain. These pains are caused by an ankle that was broken twice, a torn meniscus (torn tissue in knee), and plantar fasciitis ( inflammation of a thick band of tissue that connects the heel bone to the toes). What’s the best medicine for these? Loosing weight. I know it to be true and it’s what I need to get done.

Being 320 pounds makes it hard to enjoy life to its fullest. I can’t go on long hikes, feel confident at the beach, or feel sexy. I love the outdoors and hiking to beautiful places but at my weight it makes trips like this difficult. I need constant breaks, need to go slow, and I’m just not capable of making some of the longer and harder hikes. When it comes to confidence, I find myself ashamed of my body and unwilling to let my skin show. Yes we are all beautiful and I do love myself but I do not love the extra weight. This also ties into feeling sexy. I can’t take off my clothing without feeling sick. I personally wouldn’t want to have sex with me. Sure there are guys into super curvy women but I am for sure not one of them. I want to look at myself in the mirror and say “I’d tap that.”

Why have I spent months at 320 lbs? Even though I workout I am not putting in the work on the food. I am sneaking sweets, extra carbs, and eating too much. I am at a constant battle with my body and I am loosing. I crave foods and I satisfy myself instead of holding strong and saying NO! I need to learn to say NO and my weightloss journey will truly begin. Today I will say NO. Tomorrow has become today. No more “tomorrow I’ll do better.” Today I will do better.